I watched it Begin Again.

Begin Again
Taylor Swift

Took a deep breath in the mirror
He didn't like it when I wore high heels
But I do
Turned the lock and put my headphones on
He always said he didn't get this song
But I do, I do

Walked in expecting you'd be late
But you got here early and you stand and wave
I walk to you
You pull my chair out and help me in
And you don't know how nice that is
But I do

And you throw your head back laughing like a little kid
I think it's strange that you think I'm funny 'cause he never did
I've been spending the last eight months
Thinking all love ever does is break and burn and end
But on a Wednesday in a cafe I watched it begin again

He said he never met one girl
Who had as many James Taylor records as you
But I do
We tell stories and you don't know why
I'm coming off a little shy
But I do

But you throw your head back laughing like a little kid
I think it's strange that you think I'm funny 'cause he never did
I've been spending the last eight months
Thinking all love ever does is break and burn and end
But on a Wednesday in a cafe I watched it begin again

And we walked down the block to my car and I almost brought him up
But you start to talk about the movies that your family watches
Every single Christmas and I won't talk about that
And for the first time what's past is past

'Cause you throw your head back laughing like a little kid
I think it's strange that you think I'm funny 'cause he never did
I've been spending the last eight months
Thinking all love ever does is break and burn and end
But on a Wednesday in a cafe I watched it begin again

But on a Wednesday in a cafe I watched it begin again

You know, sometimes, you just will meet this one song, which you think that it is made for you. A song that truly can describe your feelings, or your circumstances so precisely.

I played this song for the first time yesterday on my new downloaded songs playlist and totally in love in the first tune. And when I listened carefully to the lyrics.. I shocked a little bit. This song is so me. Was. Even the 'eight months' line was completely true.

I mentioned before in earlier post last year, that I've been in the lowest times in my life because of this one badass. Well let's call it-ehem-him, this guy. I won't describe more with some pity broken hearted girl stories again, it was so last year and I have dealt with them a long, long time ago. It's amazing how love can change a person. I couldn't get over thinking how lame and blind I was. Well, everyone often made a big mistake when they're young. But still, I am really thankful that it have happened to me. I realize how big God's love for me, that He wanted me to learn and learn again from my mistakes.

I was crushed, destroyed, and never looked to myself the way I was at that time. YES I was the type of girl who believes that everyone is good, that someone who love me wouldn't hurt me. In fact I knew it later that they're the ones who will hurt you the most. They often said it, I just never listened to them.

And then he, yes, you hubby! One day like the lyrics, he showed up a time in my life and the wounded bounds planted in my heart, they slowly faded. Like a balloon, they popped one by one. Pop, pop, pop, until all of them were gone. And they never came back again. How?

I didn't say that it was easy -- 

'I've been spending the last eight months, thinking all love ever does is break, and burn, and end.'

I've been on that phase. Eight months I were lost and I never truly believed in someone. I even was too scared to open my heart again for someone.

But suddenly you came and fills everything I ever wanted, everything I only can imagine that can ever happen to me -- those kind of love. Like a father loves his only daughter. That soft look everytime I turn my eyes on yours. I could never doubt that you're inlove with me, and I feel the same about you too.

I owe You too much, right, Father? :)

'And for the first time what's past is past.'

Yes, what's past is past. Now I can look at those hard times as a very important lesson in my life. I am blessed now with much more love, than I thought I never could ever deserve. You fills my world with laughter, you makes it up for both of us, you try and fight to stay with me. And I can't ever stop to think if I'm worthy enough for you, but you always ensure me that I am.

Happy 21st monthversary. I'm so glad I have you're here with me.

I love you, hun.

*

Thanks for reading. :)

Sorry if it's too long and whatever, but I hope you enjoyed it.

Irene.

Baking thing!

Hey there! ;)

I'm thinking that maybe time flew twice as fast on this new year, because this is the end of January already! Oh my, like, tick tock tick tock. And my holiday will be over in *plus minus* two weeks?? What have I done to pass all those time, really?

Lately I've been this maniac into cooking, somehow besides sketching and designing, I feel a place that I am really myself. Or maybe is it just a matter of age? Ha ha ;p who knows? I always think that someday all of girls will slowly turn their heart on kitchen matters, late or not. They're our duty, however, to become a housewife.

Well, I love challenges. I have tried many experiments.. Some ended successfully and some were just another lessons. So far, the recipes I have tried by myself are Oreo Cheesecake Cupcakes, Mushroom Cream Soup, Spaghetti Bolognaise, The Devil's Food Cupcake, and Macaroni Cheese Pie. The last one is everyone's favorite! Even my youngest brother told me that it was on his list for 'My-most-lovable-foods'. *He's still 10 :p*

The sad part is, I still don't have an SLR yet, so I couldn't took all the photos of those beauties. I wanna be like all those people who made something and did a photography session with that. Well, I like that thingy. It's so hard to ignore such a lovely food! SLR SLR come to momma faster..

Yesterday after I made another one recipe Macaraoni Cheese Pie, I found my dream web about this kitchen stuffs. It's called Brown Eyed Baker, for you who are dying for sweets and treats and foods, you should check her web here. I love Martha Stewart too, but I love BEB more. And the best part is she also did this super lovable photograph with all of her food! I actually dropped my jaw everytime I looked at her recipe pages. I want them all! SERIOUSLY, HOW CAN YOU NOT LOVE THESE??

Now I've saved many recipes to try on later, but whyyyy the ingredients are always so expensive! Sometimes there are some ingredients that even can't be found here, and I have to look for the subtitues or the DIY-at-home version. Also, the measurements for the recipes are usually by US or something international. For exp, they uses cups instead of grams. And it is so frustating because each ingredient have a different cups measurements and I'm like what-I-supposed-to-do-with-this-dutch-processed-cocoa-powder-and-this-red-gel-liquid-or-not-food-paste and so on. Yeeeaaaah. Even though it's hard sometimes, I still enjoy them, like a little kid opens their favorite bedtime story books. They never bored. So do I. Learn takes time, right? ;)

What about you? Do you like to bake too? 

Let me know about it! :D

Thanks for reading!

Irene :)

3rd Semester VCD Student's - Final Tasks

So.

Yesterday my grades were finally out, and..

Well, it was like, somebody has just slapped me in the face.

I knew I was being lazier every semester, but I never ever thought that my grades will be this low. Two Cs? Like, am I that lazy? Or maybe I'm too focused on the subjects that suits me better, the one with a lot of practical lessons instead of theories. I've never been that good on theoretical subjects, somehow I just need a lot, like, really, lot time to remember some of those shits-ehem-theories.

Well, regrets always come late. But I know this is a real lesson for me, and I'd swore to myself, if I can't bring my grades up next semester, maybe I'd better be going out from college :\

Okay, so I wanted to tell you about my final task from my most favorite subject, Desain Komunikasi Visual 1, or as you know, Visual Communication Design 1, or VCD 1.

The task is about making a brochure or pamphlet for a place. They offer many options, such as Water parks, Museums, Theme park, or Amusement Park, Zoo, Malls, or other entertainment places.

I chose Amusement Park near my home, considered the fact that it's so close from my house so it will be easier for me to do the surveys. The park called - Taman Remaja Surabaya (THR), or maybe in english, Surabaya Teen's Park - so strange :\

Well a week before we've given this task, the lecturers had asked us to re-draw (by hand) a map of that place, and so when the next task, about making its brochure, the map must be inserted inside it.

Me and my friends, so lucky because we had the same place, they also did THR -White and Wulan from Bootsydoopsy- did some survey. Like, take some photos for our brochure information. Long story short, here it is. And let me know about what do you think of them. Critics always are the best teachers to learn.

Front view

Full Front & Inside view

And also, here is my final project in Computer Graphic subject. The task is about making an infographic about yourself. Google what infographic is! ;) The hardest part is to trace my face into a vector object. I.. had to be very, very patient. Ugh.

Final! :)

So tell me, what do you think about it?

I'd like to hear from you all! ;)

Thanks for reading! :)

Irene